Life has been wild these last
three months with priceless moments I will hold forever. My second son left for
his mission to Serbia, Russia. It’s been quiet in our home with him gone. His hobbie
of rebuilding speakers and then playing his music that often made our windows
dance to the rhythm of several different composers has been greatly missed. From
the melody of Tchaikovsky's Symphony 4, IV FINALE, Phantom of the Opera,
Pirates of the Caribbean, Maroon 5, David Guetta, Jason Mraz, Ed Sheeran and
many more..Those last few I wrote I don’t think were his favorite, but he loved
some of the songs. I miss him more each day, but at the same time feel greater
peace that he is where he needs to be. His dimple, smile and the warmth of his embrace
are held close to my heart each second, minute and hour of the day.
I have been observing others
and watching how they interact…what makes a smile appear and what draws sadness
painted on their faces. Some people cover their sadness with unspoken words, or
they fill their days with meaningless time. I wonder how many people stay
hidden in the walls of their homes to shelter them from feeling rejection. How many
people use material things to fill the emptiness of loneliness?
For me…I keep the memories that
can never be bought or given to anyone and they are what help me to cope when
trials come and rejection plays games with my feelings. Not often do I ever
feel sad, but there are times I have had a day of havoc of not knowing which
way is up.
The awesome thing is we are
beautiful souls who all have a purpose in life. We can share a smile, or wave that
sends a warmth of kindness. I love it when I can smile at a stranger and make
their smile appear seconds after mine.
The world is full of love that
goes unspoken. It doesn’t mean that it’s felt less deeply or that its separation
leaves to clean the sore.
Its beauty and its pain are in its
silence
Love cannot be spoken only
shown and everything that makes the heart beat must be hushed. Do we all feel
this way? Does anyone feel like they can never let their heart beat as they
wished? Their heart locked deep in the silence of a sore unable to be nursed by
the one you deeply love.
